This few days has been rather blank for me. I don't know why, but my headaches seems to be getting worse and worse, and no medication seems to be working for me. I went to the doctor for the third time just now over a period of seven weeks, and this time the doctor actually gave me some other medication, something that I think has no connection to my headaches whatsoever. It seems to me that I find it harder and harder for me to fall asleep, unlike before. There always seems to be something weighing my mind down, but I just can't seem to put my finger on what it is that is bothering me so much. Life as I know it has turned upside down, and I'm not really sure if I can adapt to it well. I'm not used to being so serious all the time, to have something actually bothering me to the extent that I keep thinking about it. Those were the days that I actually have no cares in the world, living on a day to day basis without having to think about what comes tomorrow. I used to think about things as they come, but how things have changed now. I have worries that stop me from enjoying anything that I do, stopping me from feeling as happy as I'm supposed to when I receive a piece of good news. I have no idea how long this will last, but all I'm certain for now is that it will last quite some time. One thing is for sure, I will never forget this period of time for the rest of my life, the period of time that Fatin Rasyidah didn't feel like smiling at all...
LeO TaN.7:36 AM
. ___thinking of you every min