I just realised how messy I was when I was messing around with my wallet. I have no idea how many receipts I had kept until yesterday. Gosh, when I threw out all of the receipts, and my wallet's thickness dropped by half! If you were wondering why I was doing this in the middle of a crisis, it was because I was going to explode if I spent one more moment thinking about it. I really needed something to take my mind off things, even for the shortest moment possible. It helped, if only a little. I couldn't sleep again for the third night running, and I really hope to find peace soon, becuase at this rate, I think I may just collapse from physical and mental exhaustion. I have been talking to my class tutors and some of my seniors, but somehow, their words only helped me a little. With the application form filled in and signed by my father, it all boils down to my decision now. My class tutor says that it is wise of me to hold back the submission of the application, but I'm not too sure. Why, oh why must this be so difficult for me when I want it?
LeO TaN.5:19 PM
. ___thinking of you every min